Confused

Sometimes I feel that I am the only one here. It feels that im not trusted and I really hate feeling like this. Just wish that i could be trusted its not like i have done someonthing to not be not trusted...... this makes me sooooooooooo MAD!!!

A Letter To Home

Well yesterday I received a nice suprise. It was a letter from my b/f. I was so happy to read it and it made me cry. Thinking about all the stuff that he is missing out on while he is away. Wishing he was here right now to hold me and tell me that everything will be just fine.
Then this morning I ran to my computer and logged into facebook to see that he was online. So I said hello and he said hello back YAY!!! He told me that he was going to download Skype and he was going to call me.
The one thing I hate about the calls to home is the SATT phones. The suck and the cut out and there is a few second delays. so at times when I have so much to say I forget these things as its soo overwheleming to hear his voice. He has only been back to his "home" base for a few days to find out that he is going to be leaving AGAIN!!!! The phones will be down for a week but he said it didnt matter as they will be away and have a SATT phone where ever they will be next
It was great to hear from him for that time begining it was like as if he was here with me and not 10,0000kms away. This month is just about over and so is this week.

9 weeks to go for HLTA :) YAY

4 Weeks till Christmas

Well Never thought that I would be here trying to write something in a blog for the world to see. I guess its like a journal.

Today Marks four weeks to Christmas. At this point in time i just wish that it would bypass. My boyfriend is currently on deployment overseas amongst many of our friends. They have been been gone for two months now!! They are all due back home safe and sound sometime in April!!

People don't really understand what I am going through each and everyday! They think they know BUT have know idea!

I am thankful for my daughter to keep me going each and everyday. Her hugs and kisses and bright smiles keep me warm and happy. As I'm sure she is finding it hard to understand why Daddy is not around! All she knows and Remembers is that Daddy went on a bus and he is far away! She does know that Daddy loves her very much and misses her so!

We take loads of pictures of our daily adventures so he wont feel left out. The calls and the emails that we receive from him, means a great deal to US and to hear Abby say she loves her daddy when she talks to him makes me melt every time!

Last week we mailed out his Christmas Parcel in hoping that he will me "home" to open it and not away some place like he has been. He just got back from being away for 27 days!! I really hope and pray that they stay close by for awhile. I did receive a letter from him today that brought tears to my eyes and i also found out that he finally received his first parcel that we sent to him!!

He may not be here around the Holidays but he will me in my heart an thoughts throughout this holiday season. He will be home in 9 weeks for HLTA and We will be having a Christmas on our own when he is home for those 3 weeks. I am very proud of my Soldier!! I stand behind him and support him the best way that I know how!!

Miss and Love you Very Much Baby!!! XOXOXOXOX